Thursday, August 12, 2010

Not angry...just disappointed!

Have your parents ever said that to you?

I always remember being more fearful of the word 'disappointed' than the word 'angry'.

I hate people being disappointed in me.

Worst of all, I hate being disappointed in myself.

So I have been bad, so bad that I am finding it hard to type.
Something happened this week and I am still trying to understand and sort through it.
No, not anything dramatic or sad but something.

I reached a goal 2 weeks ago. I got to the 80Kg mark.
Thats where it all went wrong.
I started to get slack.
I havent exercised.
I have eaten so badly that I can not even tell you what I have eaten.
If its bad, it has been eaten.

Last weeks weigh in saw me put on 500grams. I didnt post about it because I was embarrassed. So I kept eating. Then a whole lot of things called life got happened. Stress, work, tiredness and with that more eating.

You know this is a big problem for me and I know I need help because life will always happen. I can;t control it, but I should be able to control what I put in my mouth.

I dont want to get on the scales this Sunday but I will.

Maybe I can get out of this hole if I try really hard tomorrow and Saturday so that the remaining 3 weeks until my holiday can be a success with diet and exercise.


  1. I'm sorry you've had a slipup :hug:

    You know what though? You've lost 20 kgs hun! You're an absolute ROCK STAR! So you've had your week of eating bad stuff, and you don't like how it feels - use it as motivation for this week. Everytime you're tempted to eat something norty, remember how you feel right now. Then tell yourself, 'I'm hot, sexy and gorgeous, and i AM going to reach my goal - so stand outta my way!'


  2. Oh that's so hard. Just take it from today. Don't let another day get by you. You can do it!

  3. The other day is my WW meeting someone said they had been "bad" and the leader said this...
    Eating something or not eating something does not make you a "bad" person. Don't think of it as I've been bad, think of it as I've made a poor choice (or several poor choices).
    You are strong. You've come a long way. You've just made afew poor choices lately. Get back up and CHOOSE to move forward.

    You can do it :)

  4. Oh my gosh. I have been there. I know exactly how you are feeling. Don't let it derail you. I know it is easier said than done, but just acknowledge the misstep and keep right on walking. I've been derailed many times and it's always harder to get back to where you were if you go off the path entirely. Hang in there!

  5. This is just one week of many in your life. Start right now and get back on track!! You can totally do this!! Just think, next week you will be telling us how successful you've been!! I can't wait to hear!! Do it today!! Hugs!

  6. I'm going through something similar at the moment and have blogged about it - I call it my Dark Night of the Soul. For me, I got a positive result on a monitoring test done by my health practitioner and that was all it took for me to take my foot off the pedal. But you know what, in the time this has happened I've learnt more about some of the emotional stuff I carry than previously. It seems that if the weight is coming off, then I mainly focus on is the physical stuff - avoidance? Yeh probably! Know that when you feel beat up like now, just expect something good to come from it! And remember how hot you look in your new swimmers!

  7. It seems like we have all been having those days. We need to pick ourselves up, head to the gym and then stock the fridge with yummy fresh veggies! You can do it girl!

  8. I know how difficult a setback can be, but remember, it's okay to fall sometimes as long as you get back up, which you are doing :)

    Good luck!

  9. You are all just amazing and have picked me up and put me right back on the treadmill. Here's hoping for tomorrow.

  10. Argh! I left you an inspirational little comment just as my computer froze.

    Ha ha ha...I had to pop by your blog again just to see the turtle. Cracks me up!

  11. That turtle does look very disappointed!!!

    Oh, Ali xxxxxx

    I read about this so much, people who have reached a big goal just suddenly going 'off piste' in a big way. You have posted about it on here fast which is great.. it's so easy to try to hide away from people when things like this happen but you're here, you're sharing... and that is a very good thing to be doing

    Sorry this comment is late we've been away and having to rest a lot at the moment

    Hope this made sense bit foggy at the moment xxxx

    *big hugs*

    Gail xxx