Seriously what am I doing to myself!!
My eating is out of control!
The last 24hours have consisted of a massvie binge.
I feel like while I am eating I am not even thinking and then it suddenly dawns on me that I have consumed chips, chocolate and icecream and the proverbial 'oh fuck!' (excuse language) sets in.
Emotions of happiness from eating sugary treats, then regret, the loathing at myself, then anger and frustration. Not at the food but at myself.
I think I really need to get this part of my brain sorted because otherwise I will never be able to maintain a healthy weight.
Arrhhhh sorry for the downer post. I just needed to get it out and be honest with myself and all of you.
I know I now need to be acountable for what I have put into my body and that is the tough part.
Was the taste of that food really worth it?
But will I remember that next time when I unconsciously concume all the wrong things?