Please yell at me.. I have been bad!

I disappeared for a while because...I felt like a failure :(

I stopped blogging because I stopped being healthy.
I stopped exercising.
I stopped weighing myself.

I gave myself a free pass until New Years Day thinking I had 2 months then to hit it hard for my wedding dress fitting and be in fabulour shape so I could order the size I wanted.

Well it hasn't turned out that way and here is why...

My dress wasnt supposed to be ordered until end of February but the week before Xmas I got a phonecall saying I had to come in straight away for a fitting as my dress was being discontinued.

I had not begun working on my weightloss as my wedding isnt until September and I thought I would go for broke in Jan and Feb to order a dress that is closer to the size I want to be by September. Anyway this threw a massive spanner in the works as being Xmas and party season I had put on weight.
So I went in and got measured and the lady was adament that I should order the size I am now or bigger as with my dress there are no side seams to take it out. It is a slimline dress.

She said I should order a size 14 and it can always be taken in up to 2 sizes without the bust line and stuff starting to look strange. I said that I was definitely going to lose weight and that I have actually lost 20kg over the last year and that was just for a friends wedding. I still have another 15kg-20kg I want to lose.

She said so many brides come in and say they will lose weight but most dont so we would STRONGLY advise you to order the size 14.

WAY TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A FAILURE STRAIGHT AWAY....

My dress wont come in until July so I have until then to kick my fat goodbye. Between going back to work full time, raising an almost 2 year old and planning an overseas wedding, I am sure I can get a routine going and lose it. and I will show that bridal shop lady that she was WRONG!

I need your help guys...I need you to help keepme on track. I will be reading your blogs and making sure I update mine. I am getting back to regular weigh ins.

Today I weigh 84kg. (Sad)......but next week I will weigh less because of the hard work I will put in from now.

Look at my changes!!!!

Okay, so although they might not be massive, they are there.

And I am not only talking about the changes to my blog, but also changes to my life.

After a BIG MOMENTARY LAPSE OF CONCENTRATION, I have managed to make some changes to get back on track to becoming healthy, looking hot and feeling great!

You know it all comes down to mind frame. I am still disappointed in myself for how I let all my exercise and healthy eating habits go for the last 7 weeks but that is the past. The most important thing is not letting those bad habits go on forever. That is when I run into problems.

SO what have I done this week?

Walking - 4 times this week
Stopped eating icecream, chips, chocolate and stoped drinking juice.

Obviously these small changes have made a difference as the scales are now saying 83kg So that's a 1 kilogram loss which I will take especially after the gains I ahve had the last 7 weeks!

Plan for this week

I have organised with my best friend (who is also one of my bridesmaids) to go walking 2 nights a week. It's daylight savings here now and the weather is warming up (well not today, but it has been).

5km of Interval training on treadmill 2 nights

Drink 2 litres of water a day

Eat breakfast daily

Hope that everyone has fantastic losses this week.

We have all done it right??....Time to get back to reality!

You reach a goal, you relax, you have a few extra wines, some extra nibbles, you stop exercising and before you know it you are way off track!

It was time for me to weigh in tonight and face reality after not getting on the scales for 3 weeks.

I am now 81kg! I think I have put most of that on since I got home to be honest but I need to make some changes, own that weight gain of 4.5kg (how someone gains 4.5kg in 3 weeks I will never know!!!)

Got big plans a head and new goals to set. Will keep you updated!