Please yell at me.. I have been bad!

I disappeared for a while because...I felt like a failure :(

I stopped blogging because I stopped being healthy.
I stopped exercising.
I stopped weighing myself.

I gave myself a free pass until New Years Day thinking I had 2 months then to hit it hard for my wedding dress fitting and be in fabulour shape so I could order the size I wanted.

Well it hasn't turned out that way and here is why...

My dress wasnt supposed to be ordered until end of February but the week before Xmas I got a phonecall saying I had to come in straight away for a fitting as my dress was being discontinued.

I had not begun working on my weightloss as my wedding isnt until September and I thought I would go for broke in Jan and Feb to order a dress that is closer to the size I want to be by September. Anyway this threw a massive spanner in the works as being Xmas and party season I had put on weight.
So I went in and got measured and the lady was adament that I should order the size I am now or bigger as with my dress there are no side seams to take it out. It is a slimline dress.

She said I should order a size 14 and it can always be taken in up to 2 sizes without the bust line and stuff starting to look strange. I said that I was definitely going to lose weight and that I have actually lost 20kg over the last year and that was just for a friends wedding. I still have another 15kg-20kg I want to lose.

She said so many brides come in and say they will lose weight but most dont so we would STRONGLY advise you to order the size 14.

WAY TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A FAILURE STRAIGHT AWAY....

My dress wont come in until July so I have until then to kick my fat goodbye. Between going back to work full time, raising an almost 2 year old and planning an overseas wedding, I am sure I can get a routine going and lose it. and I will show that bridal shop lady that she was WRONG!

I need your help guys...I need you to help keepme on track. I will be reading your blogs and making sure I update mine. I am getting back to regular weigh ins.

Today I weigh 84kg. (Sad)......but next week I will weigh less because of the hard work I will put in from now.

I found it!!

Okay, I havent blogged.



We all know that there is one reason for not blogging (an no its not the excuse of no time, been busy, wedding planning, etc). Plain and simple I have been lazy.

My treadmill hasnt been touched in weeks and some highlights lowlights of my diet this week include banana paddlepops, cheese twisties and a frozen coke (among other foods)!

HOWEVER

I have HUGE, ENORMOUS, GIGANTIC motivation now!

I found my wedding dress today and I am going to share it with all of you.

But shhhhhhh!! It's a secret!

Front & Back.

I am getting it in Ivory.

I think I am going to write a post all about body image and the experience of it all.

I have until February to lose most of the weight I want to lose then I will be fitted and what ever sie I am will be ordered. I will then have a dress size either side to move. Hopefully move downwards!!!!

So I have 4 months to lose at least 15kg!

That is the goal!

The Challenge!

It is on!!!

IN A MAJOR WAY!!!

Oh and did I mention that this is where I am getting married?????